we've all seen a loved one pass away, I'm on an edge that would destroy the vindictive self I once called my well being
I've seen her, very fragile yet hah, so brash, giving me the strength to see life as it is
through disease and punishment I saw her defeat statistics, so much strength
its a gift we rarely see and are lucky to be bestowed upon; a chance to influence and help our realizations strike home towards what it is to be mortal, look towards our own chance to change the bubble around us....
good homes for good souls
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Had a dream(I know its fucking gay(DON'T SWEAR) but whatever)
in it I was at a party, a little get together and with the love of my life, then BAM! my dream girl was perusing around the room with our group and came up to me and commented
'well I'm glad you've met a really beautiful girl, you must love her, occasionally I wonder why it couldn't have been me'
sidenote:
I've known this dream girl since I was 6 and I've been told by my mom and her siblings that she had an interest in me but blew it off because she was too... just too... I don't know... pretty, but that doesn't really sum it up
I replied--
'I do love her she's everything I could ask for, yet when we bumped into each other, you were genuinely excited to see me and I pushed away the feign possibility of us being together, ignored you out of shame because of your new husband and I felt sick, yet I've never stopped seeing my future without you'
we then shared a starry eyed moment of possible futures together, I imagined resorts in Monaco, she saw us in Paris; dipping our feet in the ocean off of the coast of Brazil and a blank dark page appeared
then my eyelids opened
the reality of being alive replied to me as such
" HEY FAG, STOP LIVING IN THE PAST, ITS 8AM AND YOU SHOULD REALIZE NONE OF THAT SHIT MATTERS MAKE THE BEST OF WHAT YOU HAVE AND STOP FUCKING PISSING AND MOANING OF WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN"
and thats pretty much how my mornings are, my dreams are where I live out beautiful 'ifs' and see landscapes of possibilities unfold before me; reaching out to touch the supple creations that is my soul, but my cynical, obtuse and basically chemically controlled mind won't have any of that nonsense
I hate having dreams about her, mainly it amounts to nothing but regret, which I apparently have enough to spare and drip onto my actual daily happenings
the main point of all the garbage I just spilled is that there is no way anyone can see past an alcoholic joke of a man on the verge of insanity to see what I really am
an empty and void of emotion counselor
'well I'm glad you've met a really beautiful girl, you must love her, occasionally I wonder why it couldn't have been me'
sidenote:
I've known this dream girl since I was 6 and I've been told by my mom and her siblings that she had an interest in me but blew it off because she was too... just too... I don't know... pretty, but that doesn't really sum it up
I replied--
'I do love her she's everything I could ask for, yet when we bumped into each other, you were genuinely excited to see me and I pushed away the feign possibility of us being together, ignored you out of shame because of your new husband and I felt sick, yet I've never stopped seeing my future without you'
we then shared a starry eyed moment of possible futures together, I imagined resorts in Monaco, she saw us in Paris; dipping our feet in the ocean off of the coast of Brazil and a blank dark page appeared
then my eyelids opened
the reality of being alive replied to me as such
" HEY FAG, STOP LIVING IN THE PAST, ITS 8AM AND YOU SHOULD REALIZE NONE OF THAT SHIT MATTERS MAKE THE BEST OF WHAT YOU HAVE AND STOP FUCKING PISSING AND MOANING OF WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN"
and thats pretty much how my mornings are, my dreams are where I live out beautiful 'ifs' and see landscapes of possibilities unfold before me; reaching out to touch the supple creations that is my soul, but my cynical, obtuse and basically chemically controlled mind won't have any of that nonsense
I hate having dreams about her, mainly it amounts to nothing but regret, which I apparently have enough to spare and drip onto my actual daily happenings
the main point of all the garbage I just spilled is that there is no way anyone can see past an alcoholic joke of a man on the verge of insanity to see what I really am
an empty and void of emotion counselor
Thursday, September 2, 2010
See yourself as we see you.
I don't have any moral problem with hunting and don't really give a rat's ass about what happens to the animal. If it was up to me, I'd just leave whatever I shot on the ground to rot rather than having to deal with it.
It usually isn't up to me, though, because I almost never do it and am an exceptionally poor shot, especially with large rifles. My father isn't a regular hunter, at least not anymore, but he's a much better shot.
Anyway, we went out a couple of days ago to a friend's ranch to help him shoot spikes, or bucks with unimpressive antlers that won't grow into an impressive trophy and will dilute the genetic value of the local deer. It's really just an excuse to shoot at stuff. The two of us climbed into a deer stand where some spikes were supposed to be about half an hour before first light.
We didn't even realize it until it started getting light that there was a corn feeder there, about 200 yards from the stand, which shows you just how much we knew what we were doing. The sun was finally up at about 7:15 a.m., and the first deer showed up a few minutes after that. The feeder, we discovered, was set to go off at 7:30.
This was a doe, or so it looked like as best we could tell, and we left it alone to wait for spikes.
Over the course of the next two hours, about seven deer showed up, including one really impressive buck that we weren't allowed to touch and eventually had to aim around. The rest were all doe.
Finally, we couldn't stand the itch anymore and since we had two guns, figured we might try getting two deer at once. 3-2-1-shoot, and fire together on the shoot at two of the doe.
We nearly pulled it off, but of course if one of them was still the other was moving, or if they were both still, one would turn our way instead of broadside. So after maybe ten minutes of that we gave up and I just took a shot at one of them. As stated previously, I am an awful shot and didn't injure any of them more than getting some dirt in one of their eyes and maybe causing long term heart damage.
Soon enough, one of them wandered back (one of the does) and my dad took a shot of his own. He hit it, and it fell down. It tried to get up and run, but could only use its front legs; the back ones weren't working.
We sat in the stand and waited for it to bleed out, afraid that if we went down to check on it, we might scare it and give it the shock to temporarily forget it had been shot and run off. In hindsight, this was pure foolishness. It had been shot high in the back and its spine had been blown to pieces. There wasn't any way on earth it was going to get itself up and run.
But it wasn't dying, and after maybe twenty minutes of waiting for it to bleed to death, it had continued to occasionally try to pull itself up with its front legs and now was just sitting upright. This wouldn't do.
My father was somewhat anguished over this because he likes "a good shot," meaning he doesn't want the animal to suffer. I am of the opinion that if I gave a rat's ass about its suffering, I wouldn't be out trying to kill it in the first place. But that's neither here nor there.
My dad was going to try "a mercy shot" to put it down for good. He had to shoot three times; the first two went high and above the deer. The third one smacked it very good and I was certain he'd hit it in the head because the sound was solid and when it fell over; it didn't even twitch.
So we got down out of the blind, went to the pickup and loaded the stuff up, then drove over to get our dead deer. There was some brush on the side, and my dad had to drive past it then back up again to get close enough to pick the deer up off the ground and into the truck bed. This was, or at least it seemed to me, an exceptionally large deer, and the last thing we wanted to do was have to carry it any distance at all. Unfortunately, he went too far and ran over the back legs.
Now, I don't know if that's what woke it up (I can't imagine how it would have felt anything), but it did wake up, kind of lift its head, and might have moaned, although I don't remember. Its eyes were rolling back in its head and its tongue was out, and this in addition to the other wounds made it look a very pitiful sight.
My dad had out his knife to field dress it, but when he saw it was still alive, he was at a loss. I jokingly suggested we could get the baseball bat out of the truck locker and "Iraan it." (Some local high school boys had been caught beating to death several deer in cowpens with baseball bats and it was a bit of a media sensation.) More seriously I said he or I should cut its throat and just let it bleed to death.
In the end, he remembered we had a .22-caliber rifle for rabbit shooting, and he used that to put a bullet in-between the deer's eyes and kill it dead.
During some part of this, we also noticed that it hadn't been a doe he'd killed but a tiny-antlered spike, so as we tossed the deer onto the truck bed's open gate, we consoled ourselves that at least we'd done what we set out to do.
On the ride back to the ranch house (he'd remembered we shouldn't field dress a deer by the corn feeder; it'd scare off other deer), we hit a bump and lost the carcass, although we didn't realize this until we got all the way back and had to drive back to find it. This time we put it in the truck bed proper and shut the gate.
When we hung it up (which as heavy as it was, was no small task) and started cutting it open, we saw just how much damage had been done. The first shot seemed to have gone in perpendicular, straight in one side and out the other, blowing up the spine. But the second's entrance would was in the shoulder and looked to have exited in about the same place, ripping up everything in between. About half the meat was no good at all.
Since we don't do this often enough, we totally fucked up getting the organs out, though it didn't help the body was in such bad shape. In case you didn't know it, bladders are gross, and when you cut one with your knife, it's real gross.
There was one odd thing, though. It seemed to have an awful lot of fur inside its body. At first we thought maybe some of it had gotten taken inside by the bullet, but there was too much for that. Then my dad said maybe it had eaten something and the fur had come out of its stomach or something, but I'd never heard of carnivorous deer, at least not ones that could eat that much of something.
As I poked around some more I saw some claws. And paws. Almost like...
That was when I realized it wasn't a deer at all; it was a bear disguised as a deer.
"Jesus Christ. it's a bear!" I screamed at my father. "Get in the car!" My dad stared at me blankly. He didn't understand the gravity of what we'd done as I did. It didn't matter that we didn't know we'd been killing a bear as we'd done it. They would come for us all the same, and when they did, they would show absolutely no quarter.
"We have to leave, dad! We have to get out of here," I said as I grabbed his arm and started toward the truck.
"But our stuff is still in the cabin."
"Leave it," I said. "There's no time."
I took the keys and told my dad to ride shotgun because he was a better shot. We still had two deer rifles, the .22, and a 12-gauge behind the seats. It wouldn't protect us, I knew, but it might hold them off longer enough to get to the highway.
I put the key in the ignition and started to drive. The truck seemed to be moving slower than it should have been.
"Ahh!" my dad screamed and fired. I heard something tumble out of the back of the truck. "Was that a bear!?"
I didn't answer him. As I floored it and started going down the bumpy dirt road toward freedom, more of them lumbered out of the trees, and I figured my dad would be smart enough to figure it out for himself.
"Don't shoot them unless you absolutely have to," I said. "We don't have enough ammo, and we don't want to piss them off any more than we already have. If they catch us, hand me the rifle and I'll make sure they don't take you alive."
I suddenly felt an intense regret we'd left the pistols at home. I didn't think I could get my shoe and sock off in time to save myself, as well.
We hit ruts and took corners way too fast, but that was the least of our worries. My father continued shooting out the window and was soon down to just the shotgun. I was angry with him for getting us in a worse mess, but didn't want to criticize him so long as we were both surviving.
A bear stepped out in front of the truck and I hit it at top speed.
The impact was tremendous, and I was glad out of habit I'd put my seatbelt on. The airbags deployed and it rolled under us, but I pushed my bag away and kept my foot on the accelerator. My dad was still buried under his, so I took the knife from his side and cut it down. In the meantime, several bears had come upon us, and I urged him to keep shooting while I wiped it off of my face.
Another bear had climbed in the truck bed, and my dad was busy reloading shotgun shells. I yelled, "Hold on!" and slammed on the breaks, then mashed the gas pedal again, but the beast stayed on my hood and blocked my view.
We drove straight through the front gate and onto the highway. Only the bear stopped the bar from going through the windshield and killing my dad and I. But once we were on the highway, I knew for the immediate future, anyway, we were safe. When I pulled into a gas station at the next town, I broke down sobbing, but told my dad I was still OK to drive.
"Give me the keys," he said.
"No really, dad, I'm all right."
"Give me the keys," my dad growled. I turned to look at him and saw the .22-caliber rifle pointed at my face. Suddenly it all made sense. The full beard, the excessive back and forehead hair, the raw steak dinners.
"A doubear agent?" I asked him.
"No," the bear answered. "Just an opportunist."
"Which is why you wouldn't stop shooting. At your own kind."
"My kind?" He seemed genuinely insulted. "They weren't my kind. You think I'd associate with rednecks like those? No, my kind have much bigger plans, especially for you."
"And Mom? Does she know?"
He laughed. "Your mother has been with us from the beginning."
"Then you mean--"
"Yes."
That was when I realized I wasn't a person at all; I was a bear disguised as a human.
It usually isn't up to me, though, because I almost never do it and am an exceptionally poor shot, especially with large rifles. My father isn't a regular hunter, at least not anymore, but he's a much better shot.
Anyway, we went out a couple of days ago to a friend's ranch to help him shoot spikes, or bucks with unimpressive antlers that won't grow into an impressive trophy and will dilute the genetic value of the local deer. It's really just an excuse to shoot at stuff. The two of us climbed into a deer stand where some spikes were supposed to be about half an hour before first light.
We didn't even realize it until it started getting light that there was a corn feeder there, about 200 yards from the stand, which shows you just how much we knew what we were doing. The sun was finally up at about 7:15 a.m., and the first deer showed up a few minutes after that. The feeder, we discovered, was set to go off at 7:30.
This was a doe, or so it looked like as best we could tell, and we left it alone to wait for spikes.
Over the course of the next two hours, about seven deer showed up, including one really impressive buck that we weren't allowed to touch and eventually had to aim around. The rest were all doe.
Finally, we couldn't stand the itch anymore and since we had two guns, figured we might try getting two deer at once. 3-2-1-shoot, and fire together on the shoot at two of the doe.
We nearly pulled it off, but of course if one of them was still the other was moving, or if they were both still, one would turn our way instead of broadside. So after maybe ten minutes of that we gave up and I just took a shot at one of them. As stated previously, I am an awful shot and didn't injure any of them more than getting some dirt in one of their eyes and maybe causing long term heart damage.
Soon enough, one of them wandered back (one of the does) and my dad took a shot of his own. He hit it, and it fell down. It tried to get up and run, but could only use its front legs; the back ones weren't working.
We sat in the stand and waited for it to bleed out, afraid that if we went down to check on it, we might scare it and give it the shock to temporarily forget it had been shot and run off. In hindsight, this was pure foolishness. It had been shot high in the back and its spine had been blown to pieces. There wasn't any way on earth it was going to get itself up and run.
But it wasn't dying, and after maybe twenty minutes of waiting for it to bleed to death, it had continued to occasionally try to pull itself up with its front legs and now was just sitting upright. This wouldn't do.
My father was somewhat anguished over this because he likes "a good shot," meaning he doesn't want the animal to suffer. I am of the opinion that if I gave a rat's ass about its suffering, I wouldn't be out trying to kill it in the first place. But that's neither here nor there.
My dad was going to try "a mercy shot" to put it down for good. He had to shoot three times; the first two went high and above the deer. The third one smacked it very good and I was certain he'd hit it in the head because the sound was solid and when it fell over; it didn't even twitch.
So we got down out of the blind, went to the pickup and loaded the stuff up, then drove over to get our dead deer. There was some brush on the side, and my dad had to drive past it then back up again to get close enough to pick the deer up off the ground and into the truck bed. This was, or at least it seemed to me, an exceptionally large deer, and the last thing we wanted to do was have to carry it any distance at all. Unfortunately, he went too far and ran over the back legs.
Now, I don't know if that's what woke it up (I can't imagine how it would have felt anything), but it did wake up, kind of lift its head, and might have moaned, although I don't remember. Its eyes were rolling back in its head and its tongue was out, and this in addition to the other wounds made it look a very pitiful sight.
My dad had out his knife to field dress it, but when he saw it was still alive, he was at a loss. I jokingly suggested we could get the baseball bat out of the truck locker and "Iraan it." (Some local high school boys had been caught beating to death several deer in cowpens with baseball bats and it was a bit of a media sensation.) More seriously I said he or I should cut its throat and just let it bleed to death.
In the end, he remembered we had a .22-caliber rifle for rabbit shooting, and he used that to put a bullet in-between the deer's eyes and kill it dead.
During some part of this, we also noticed that it hadn't been a doe he'd killed but a tiny-antlered spike, so as we tossed the deer onto the truck bed's open gate, we consoled ourselves that at least we'd done what we set out to do.
On the ride back to the ranch house (he'd remembered we shouldn't field dress a deer by the corn feeder; it'd scare off other deer), we hit a bump and lost the carcass, although we didn't realize this until we got all the way back and had to drive back to find it. This time we put it in the truck bed proper and shut the gate.
When we hung it up (which as heavy as it was, was no small task) and started cutting it open, we saw just how much damage had been done. The first shot seemed to have gone in perpendicular, straight in one side and out the other, blowing up the spine. But the second's entrance would was in the shoulder and looked to have exited in about the same place, ripping up everything in between. About half the meat was no good at all.
Since we don't do this often enough, we totally fucked up getting the organs out, though it didn't help the body was in such bad shape. In case you didn't know it, bladders are gross, and when you cut one with your knife, it's real gross.
There was one odd thing, though. It seemed to have an awful lot of fur inside its body. At first we thought maybe some of it had gotten taken inside by the bullet, but there was too much for that. Then my dad said maybe it had eaten something and the fur had come out of its stomach or something, but I'd never heard of carnivorous deer, at least not ones that could eat that much of something.
As I poked around some more I saw some claws. And paws. Almost like...
That was when I realized it wasn't a deer at all; it was a bear disguised as a deer.
"Jesus Christ. it's a bear!" I screamed at my father. "Get in the car!" My dad stared at me blankly. He didn't understand the gravity of what we'd done as I did. It didn't matter that we didn't know we'd been killing a bear as we'd done it. They would come for us all the same, and when they did, they would show absolutely no quarter.
"We have to leave, dad! We have to get out of here," I said as I grabbed his arm and started toward the truck.
"But our stuff is still in the cabin."
"Leave it," I said. "There's no time."
I took the keys and told my dad to ride shotgun because he was a better shot. We still had two deer rifles, the .22, and a 12-gauge behind the seats. It wouldn't protect us, I knew, but it might hold them off longer enough to get to the highway.
I put the key in the ignition and started to drive. The truck seemed to be moving slower than it should have been.
"Ahh!" my dad screamed and fired. I heard something tumble out of the back of the truck. "Was that a bear!?"
I didn't answer him. As I floored it and started going down the bumpy dirt road toward freedom, more of them lumbered out of the trees, and I figured my dad would be smart enough to figure it out for himself.
"Don't shoot them unless you absolutely have to," I said. "We don't have enough ammo, and we don't want to piss them off any more than we already have. If they catch us, hand me the rifle and I'll make sure they don't take you alive."
I suddenly felt an intense regret we'd left the pistols at home. I didn't think I could get my shoe and sock off in time to save myself, as well.
We hit ruts and took corners way too fast, but that was the least of our worries. My father continued shooting out the window and was soon down to just the shotgun. I was angry with him for getting us in a worse mess, but didn't want to criticize him so long as we were both surviving.
A bear stepped out in front of the truck and I hit it at top speed.
The impact was tremendous, and I was glad out of habit I'd put my seatbelt on. The airbags deployed and it rolled under us, but I pushed my bag away and kept my foot on the accelerator. My dad was still buried under his, so I took the knife from his side and cut it down. In the meantime, several bears had come upon us, and I urged him to keep shooting while I wiped it off of my face.
Another bear had climbed in the truck bed, and my dad was busy reloading shotgun shells. I yelled, "Hold on!" and slammed on the breaks, then mashed the gas pedal again, but the beast stayed on my hood and blocked my view.
We drove straight through the front gate and onto the highway. Only the bear stopped the bar from going through the windshield and killing my dad and I. But once we were on the highway, I knew for the immediate future, anyway, we were safe. When I pulled into a gas station at the next town, I broke down sobbing, but told my dad I was still OK to drive.
"Give me the keys," he said.
"No really, dad, I'm all right."
"Give me the keys," my dad growled. I turned to look at him and saw the .22-caliber rifle pointed at my face. Suddenly it all made sense. The full beard, the excessive back and forehead hair, the raw steak dinners.
"A doubear agent?" I asked him.
"No," the bear answered. "Just an opportunist."
"Which is why you wouldn't stop shooting. At your own kind."
"My kind?" He seemed genuinely insulted. "They weren't my kind. You think I'd associate with rednecks like those? No, my kind have much bigger plans, especially for you."
"And Mom? Does she know?"
He laughed. "Your mother has been with us from the beginning."
"Then you mean--"
"Yes."
That was when I realized I wasn't a person at all; I was a bear disguised as a human.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
If we see ourselves through the demise of Capitalism
Then the absolute blather of right and left ethics would cease to exist. There are no blue or red states of mind, let alone red and blue states, please believe in the fact that people are good at heart and will continue to do empathetic things through hardships.
Only if men and women of a deceitful creed of thought rise up and choose to use the Ayn Rand state of virtue, will this kind of civilization fail. We built this world on the backs of men and women, they will not be at the mercy of numbers and pain any longer. Money doesn't define a human, compassion does.
I say this as a proletarian.
Only if men and women of a deceitful creed of thought rise up and choose to use the Ayn Rand state of virtue, will this kind of civilization fail. We built this world on the backs of men and women, they will not be at the mercy of numbers and pain any longer. Money doesn't define a human, compassion does.
I say this as a proletarian.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Why am I so good at bringing the bad out in everyone?
Its so easy yet I do it in a refrained way and only do it to the people I love. In some way it is poetic.
If poetry was tragic... oh wait.
If poetry was tragic... oh wait.
The cuss you are, are you cussing with me?
I'm trying to not swear in my writing, as I feel it belittles the point I'm trying to portray, so forgive me if I don't entrance you with words like FUCK fudge.
Its so strange not having friends in a new place.
New? Well not really its been almost 2 laugh busting years, whatever that means. I find myself realizing that I depend too much on old friends to introduce myself and then use that acquaintance to discover new opportunities. I never was much on personality until you really got to now me, then, well I'm not really on feelings, but thats ok, I guess depending on your point of view. Basically I'm saying I can't make friends, too much judgment on this end of the spectrum.
While I'm annoying, I'm charming at the same time, a few girls can attest to that.
and dang darn, I thought I knew how to use a semicolon, I guess today isn't for that literary device
While I'm annoying, I'm charming at the same time, a few girls can attest to that.
and dang darn, I thought I knew how to use a semicolon, I guess today isn't for that literary device
Why do I love Bobby D so much
The honest to god greatest lyricist on earth, so many bands to choose from but only one man to admire. Please bless us and change the fold we all follow through with.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Hate festers at the top and boils at the bottom
The next time you see a man acting in a way you deem animal, ask yourself, what in this society has created this. The next time you see a crowd of cheering people fainting, altering their minds and standing in awe of a great vision before them, ask yourself what in this society is this teaching us. The next time you see a division of souls of the very same plains and the very same mountains pushing support for people that refuse the mindset we encourage, ask yourself...
will you help the man next to you in the same place, or will you bind together with the system and perpetuate the control of production and endless fields of farmers dying for you to pay 33 cents peach, at the expense of strong minds, and pure soil?
I've heard what we all say(and we all say it) ' we have to do what we've got to do'. I completely understand that, believe me, I am no man to say stealing bread to feed their family is inherently bad, but the fact that many families may resort to this is a fact of the system, not of humanity's potential.
Life and the fact that I live in the USA gives me the right to voice these opinions and I am forever grateful for that, god bless America and god bless the people of America and the world, the problem is idealism that can so easily overcome a man's frustration and turn hatred into a cause that has nothing to do with the original problem. This, my fellow human being is something that must be overcome, I say this as a poor person. Piss poor, you ask? No, again I have the opportunity to voice my opinion on the last free medium available to a sad portion of people still willing to spew hatred, vice, indignation, and of course interest.
Interest is quite fascinating, interest is where all these emotions stem from, don't forget it. Faceless interest brings out primal fear and defense reactions, while true and insightful scenes upon the canvas of life it would be much harder to spread hate, only because it is in man's nature to seek the weakest link and destroy it, only later to fall into regret. Realizing cooperation would save this months harvest or raise this weeks DOW, we refuse each other and later regret it, its blatantly obvious.
Only to do it again...
For reasons so deep inside our creation it makes me sick, the second someone ruins the global economy while it was teetering on ruin, we hate them, later we in the back of our mind say 'thats some tricky jargon, who could have seen it coming'? The praising of a tyrannical system. The point is, we could all do this against the oppression. We refuse to. Why you ask? We have no common enemy to bring our society together we are much too divided to make a decision, yet we have something to look towards in solidarity, it is the actual men and women that perpetuate the fear and pain we deal with all day. I will never advocate violence, though the legislatures use that at first chance, never forget they would be nothing without us, never ever forget that, your ancestors didn't and look what they founded, the United States of America.
I poured my heart into this, though I honestly wake up every day hate filled and waiting for the next bright light to pour a beautiful, rifling shock wave shattering all the bones and concrete of the surrounding towns into what Jehovah had meant it to be, I can hug the girl I'm supposed to love after 7 years, tears streaming, though we both don't accept the boredom and reserved ignorance of apathy we both exude.
Why does pain and agony bring a man closer towards the true meaning of life?
will you help the man next to you in the same place, or will you bind together with the system and perpetuate the control of production and endless fields of farmers dying for you to pay 33 cents peach, at the expense of strong minds, and pure soil?
I've heard what we all say(and we all say it) ' we have to do what we've got to do'. I completely understand that, believe me, I am no man to say stealing bread to feed their family is inherently bad, but the fact that many families may resort to this is a fact of the system, not of humanity's potential.
Life and the fact that I live in the USA gives me the right to voice these opinions and I am forever grateful for that, god bless America and god bless the people of America and the world, the problem is idealism that can so easily overcome a man's frustration and turn hatred into a cause that has nothing to do with the original problem. This, my fellow human being is something that must be overcome, I say this as a poor person. Piss poor, you ask? No, again I have the opportunity to voice my opinion on the last free medium available to a sad portion of people still willing to spew hatred, vice, indignation, and of course interest.
Interest is quite fascinating, interest is where all these emotions stem from, don't forget it. Faceless interest brings out primal fear and defense reactions, while true and insightful scenes upon the canvas of life it would be much harder to spread hate, only because it is in man's nature to seek the weakest link and destroy it, only later to fall into regret. Realizing cooperation would save this months harvest or raise this weeks DOW, we refuse each other and later regret it, its blatantly obvious.
Only to do it again...
For reasons so deep inside our creation it makes me sick, the second someone ruins the global economy while it was teetering on ruin, we hate them, later we in the back of our mind say 'thats some tricky jargon, who could have seen it coming'? The praising of a tyrannical system. The point is, we could all do this against the oppression. We refuse to. Why you ask? We have no common enemy to bring our society together we are much too divided to make a decision, yet we have something to look towards in solidarity, it is the actual men and women that perpetuate the fear and pain we deal with all day. I will never advocate violence, though the legislatures use that at first chance, never forget they would be nothing without us, never ever forget that, your ancestors didn't and look what they founded, the United States of America.
I poured my heart into this, though I honestly wake up every day hate filled and waiting for the next bright light to pour a beautiful, rifling shock wave shattering all the bones and concrete of the surrounding towns into what Jehovah had meant it to be, I can hug the girl I'm supposed to love after 7 years, tears streaming, though we both don't accept the boredom and reserved ignorance of apathy we both exude.
Why does pain and agony bring a man closer towards the true meaning of life?
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